2016 ended with me very aware of my brokenness – I was completely caught off guard with a friend I had offended in so many ways. This thrust me into a domino effect of confusion, self doubt and condemnation about everything. Once it started I couldn’t stop it.
As a “Christmas nerd,” I was used to the holiday being filled with excitement, family, and fun outings. It didn’t happen this year. My parents were unable to come, my husband was stressed and overloaded with work so he took no vacation time, and, our money tree was bare this year so gifts and things to do were very selective. To make matters worse, my patience for my children was at its lowest and I was “stuck” entertaining them Christmas break by myself.
Are you hearing the violin? This was a “perfect storm,” which left me feeling even worse – bratty – because given what others were going through in the world, my life was a picnic. So there you go.
I was BROKEN … because, let’s face it… I am. It’s time for me to finally accept it. I always have been. And I hate to break it to you; if you’re not Jesus, you are too. That’s Truth, but not the whole story. If you remain here, you will not experience Joy. The whole truth is, I am broken without Christ.
This word was decorated and sung all through December, but let’s face it, I wasn’t feeling it. In fact, I was “feeling” lonely and … empty. How about you? Is this striking a chord with anyone?
It was missing from my Christmas. I was looking to relationships, not Christ, for joy. I was looking to circumstances, not Christ, for joy. I was looking to my own abilities and successes, not Christ, for joy.
2 Corinthians 12:9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.
God loved me and chose me in spite of my brokenness. For this, He sent His Only Son, Jesus, and by His blood alone am I saved from it. Brattyness is simply brokenness manifested. And shame comes from not fully receiving Jesus sacrifice for my brokenness. Jesus, I choose you!